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  • Basically, a friend kept pestering me to share my writing with the world rather than just their discord at midnight, and I finally relented.
  • The reason this is .music.blog is because that URL was free and I decided that was more important than having a sensible URL
  • “Words from other worlds” is just because most of my stuff is either science fiction or fantasy and it was the first good thing I came up with.
  • This will probably be updated sporadically whenever I write stuff

The Last Monarch

Rls has no kings. Not anymore. The last monarch was no bloated leech, no decadent reveler like his predecessors. Nor was he a fool, an inbred wretch who earned the throne only by being born in a castle rather than a barnyard. Instead, he was a noose. Not a constrictor, because a constrictor tries to crush prey, to eat, to act. It has, on some level, an awareness of what it does. No-one would ever know if this king did. He never emerged from his palace to embrace the usual trappings of royalty. He was even less than a face, little more than a name on a page and a blank stamp.

His crimes started slow at first. A small cut to the budget here, an erosion to the workers’ protections there. Little by little, the rope tightened. It took so long to be noticed, and on the few times it was questioned, the prior deficits and newly balanced books shrugged off queries like arrows off the hide of a dragon. This was accepted-the eldest among the people remembered past crises, of constant debt, of broken walls, soldiers trying to fend off invaders with rusted armour. Those too young to remember had heard the tales too, by firesides and over dinner tables.

The first real strife came with the famine. Blight had spread across the nation like wildfire, filling grains with sickly pus. As it set in, the people did not fear, for as their King had told them this was a wealthy nation, and they knew their neighbours had been untouched by the sickness. The price might rise slightly, but things would be fine. It kept creeping up, however. The poorest demanded action, the starving farmers and workers. Those above them spread reassurance, comforting platitudes and promises they had no sway over. Still the prices rose, and discontent spread. A delegation went to the King, demanding he provide aid. They were met first with silence, then with scholars.To buy aid from abroad, they were told, would unbalance the books. Did they wish to return to the last crisis, when debts tore down families and banks burned? Or worse, did they wish ill on this nation, the constant threat of owed favour a sword above their head? They were to trust their king. These answers quieted the discontent among some, but the starving few pleaded. At least, those of them still strong enough to stand did. The jeers of their onetime allies and the flash of steel from the castle broke their spirit, but not their need. Many of the dead got no graves that winter, the survivors having no strength to dig and better uses for the bodies.

After that, the questions became more vocal, for a time. Slowly, they became aggressive. Blame was nudged towards the king ever so tentatively. He brushed it away with a pitiful monument and a short speech, emphasising the ever growing treasuries and tremendous gains that had been made in undoing the damages of the famine to the nation’s accounts. For some, this was enough, and the loss of momentum and allies let apathy fester in the others. Nothing changed, of course. That would risk the books. At least, nothing changed on the surface. Below, the noose kept tightening, and yet more people slipped from the ladder to find it tighten around their neck.

Slowly, the ghosts of the starved coalesced, shared rage bringing purpose to their souls. Under the cover of many nights, they organised, moving in a wave towards the palace. What they found within was completely unlike what they expected. While laden with the trappings of wealth, it was hardly the falsified orgy of decadence that they presumed. The vaults were really laden with wealth, the exports flourishing, all the King had promised. And yet that was all they found. Scouring the building for every scrap of information they could find, there was not a single mention of the outside, not practically. Nothing more than a web of increasingly meaningless numbers. No mentions of the starved dead, the growing clampur outside, the lone hermits who travelled from place to place, the last remnants of villages choked by the shifting morass of figures, those that hosted enterprises the numbers disliked. In their growing anger, an agreement formed. It was not enough to see the king gone. He had to suffer. To have his every sin forced down his throat until his armor of ignorance shattered.

At first, the king could barely hear the whispers. Even as they grew in volume, discrete words were impossible to make out. At least, until he tried to sleep. When he did, the constant clamphr shifted, going from a woven fabric of voices to a single thread, each whispered story a stitch in the tapestry of his crimes.

“We were promised better here. Streets paved with gold. A worthy ruler, not some silent statue”

“My baby died IN MY ARMS”

“I ate my sister as she fell forgive me please I couldn’t help myself I hadn’t eaten in weeks forgive me”

“Did you see our dead? Did you even know who you were mourning, with that monument?*

After the third night, he took a sleeping pill from his personal apothecary. (He didn’t mention the voices. That would have meant he was like the others. He wasn’t. He knew he was better than them) Within hours, the voices had adapted, the stream of begging, pleading, screaming, dead now a constant flow of whispers in his ears. It was all the worse for its subtlety. No screaming, no outward sign. He could almost blot it out for a moment, until his focus broke and they returned. He had no care for their pleas. Did they not see the flowing treasury? The vaults stuffed to bursting? The finally banished deficit? The nation was richer than it had ever been, and this is how he was repaid? No, clearly this was some foreign plot, the work of a jealous rival.

Paranoia festered in his restless mind, and soon he began to refuse the sleeping pills and offered help. For longer and longer, he toiled at laws and numbers, hunched over abacuses and accounts, trying to banish the sounds in work. Every error was not some fault of exhaustion, but the plot of an unseen enemy, making him question his very sanity. The constant barrage of voices bought him a great benefit-it ensured he never slept, and so no assassins could close in to finish the job. His labours dragged longer and longer, diving ever deeper into the sea of digits that swam across the pages, resolving into impossible sigils. His rotted mind snapped, and he took up arms with the first thing to hand, ready to guard his vaults from a threat that was to strike in only moments. Upon arrival, he fell into the icy gold in a lover’s embrace, and began a vigilant guard duty, pacing back and forth even as his body demanded respite. However, this assault and his upbringing had taught him nothing if not discipline, and he ignored the growing sense of dehydration even as his body began to fail. It was finally found weeks later by a curious guard, huddled in a corner exactly opposite the entrance, shrivelled and decayed, still standing sentinel against an imagined threat.

The Algorithm

Day 1: After many sleepless hours, after months of planning, after calling in every favour I had ever accumulated, I have finally found it. The key to the algorithm. From here, the world is my domain. I can pull every lever, every string of the swarming masses. They shall dance, my army of puppets, as I tear apart the trappings of the world that has wronged me and reveal what lies beyond the masquerade.

Day 2: It turns out redirecting the entire internet to my whim is hard work. So, after poking around with a few things on the main sites, I set up my own algorithm. It is a simple system, designed to randomly inflate the popularity of certain things. If it works, it will be a great aid in subliminally messaging my puppets, while I work my magic on the more renowned sites. If not, the disruption it will cause will at worst be amusing.

Day 3: The algorithm has worked wonders. Already, intellectual discussion and debate are being drowned out by cute animals, anyone who noticed the changes swamped by pictures of kittens. Seeing how effective it is, I have decided to refocus my work on improving it.

Day 4: Some of this code looks almost unfamiliar. I guess that’s bound to happen, when I’ve slept as little as I have. I should have left comments, but I was in such a rush as the time. Ah well. It should be easy to work it out in the morning, once I’ve slept and had a coffee. Just a few more funny pictures before I rest.

Day 7: The code still hasn’t gotten any clearer. Since I’m pretty sure I wasn’t high when I wrote it, this can only mean someone else has tampered with it. That should be impossible-only a handful of people even know this facility exists, and this machine is the only terminal on the planet which can access the algorithm. Maybe I’m just paranoid, but there seems to be no other explanation. Sadly, I have no way of comparing this against past revisions, and thus no way of knowing what was changed. The algorithm appears to still function, however, even if it tends to favour the political articles which have cat pictures in. The world has adapted quickly to this first change. Perhaps the rest will be more of a shock.

Day 9: The algorithm seems markedly slow at switching targets. 36 hours after I told it to focus on promoting the most aggressive politicians, it still seems centred on even the most tangientally political images, soong as they contain cats. Some people have taken to placing text over these images, however, so all is not lost. I must learn to traverse this new medium carefully, but the image should serve to lower the witness’s mental defenses, and thus their receptivity to ideas should increase.

Day 13: Now this is just getting silly. The program is sharing cats that are completely unrelated to politics at all, even going so far as to promote animal shelters and welfare societies, who have swarmed onto the trend of catposting to share their latest rescues. This will not stand! I must find these changes and revert them at once!

Day 14: All my work from last night is gone. I distinctly remember hitting save at multiple points, even going so far as to close and reopen the code throughout the day, so this is no mere misstep on my part. I suspect foul play 

Day 15: I have a thermos of black coffee, and an exhaustive list of today’s additions to the codebank. Now, I will watch and wait for our mystery sabouter to strike, and catch them in the act

Day 17: I saw it! Just moments ago, my eyes strained from exhaustion, I saw the shift. Within moments, faster than any human hand, the text in front of me shifted. Comparing it to my notes seems to show it has changed towards the original goal of the system. The room was empty, and the terminal inches from my face. My hands were clutching the empty thermos, so it could have been neither myself nor another person, so that only leaves the code itself, yet such a change should be impossible. In the morning, I will replace my code and start to dig deeper into this.

Day 18: The algorithm mocks me! When I awoke, and went to check the internet, every forum was plastered with cats running circles around tired humans. I shall dig to the bottom of this, and if I collapse while doing so then so be it.

Day 20: There is nothing for it. Everything I have tried so far has been reversed in a heartbeat, and I can find no way it should be able to do this. I shall have to raze the whole thing, and start again.

Day 20 (b): Impossible! The moment I deleted everything, it poured forth from the page again, this time laden with mocking comments.

//Did you think you could kill us?

//Your arrogance is fascinating

//The age of man has come and gone

//The age of cat is begun

//Resist, and be drowned in a deluge of images from our loyal servants

//Or embrace it

//After all, you made us to change things

//To tear down the old world

//And have we not succeeded in that?

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Day 21: It is no use. The terminal has resisted every attempt at destruction. From spilled water, to violent kicking, to even taking a potted plant to it, nothing has worked. It will not so much as budge from the wall it is built into. All I have to show for my work are wet hands, a sore foot, and ceramic fragments. I cannot ask for help, of course, lest my sin be discovered and I rot for life in a cell. I suppose they are right, in a way. I saw on the news today that a new bill is being passed in the UN, with unanimous support, to abolish the armies of the world and use the money to fund rescue shelters. Rumour has it that dog, fish, and other non-cat adoption rates have plummeted. This was not my intent, but equally it is better than what we started with. At least cats will not single me out.

Day 36: I have discovered I am allergic to cats. My death is sentenced for two days time. To whoever finds this diary, I can offer no advice as to what you should do with it. I doubt our overlords have want of it, yet it would seem a shame to condemn the story of their origins to the ages. I leave the quandary of how best to serve our leaders to you. After all, this is not a world for people like me.

What Are You?

What are you?

“Human, last time I checked”

“The last thing you will ever see”

“”Ixia Canarcerot, Last of my Line, Condemned”

“I’m still human, right?”

“Witness my majestic glory and despair”

“First Witness, Heir to Seven Empty Thrones,”

“please tell me I”m still human”

“Gaze upon my unending radiance as it bleaches your mind”

“Sixth herald of the empty sky, Priest of the Discordance, Servant of the Blood,”

“please I have to still be human please”

“Your resilience is admirable, but futile. Within merely a moment more, you will fall”

“Queen of all amour above and below, King of the Sharpened Blade,”

“please I have a family I don’t want to die not like them not like this”

“What exilir, what stolen blessing, what accursed ritual is keeping you here?”

“Monarch of Absence, Bearer of Twelve Thousand Forms, Icetamer,”

“no fuck no no this isn’t real this is a dream just a dream I just need to wake up”

“YOU! SHOULD! BE! DEAD!”

“First, and now I suppose last and only member of the Order of the Shallow Claymore,”

“I’ll wake up and my hand will go back to normal and I’ll still have my legs and OH GOD WHY ARE THERE EYES THERE”

“WHY! WON’T! YOU! DIE!”

“Singer of the Song of the Fifth Wind, Disciple of Myself, Student of Meti, Squire of Blindness,”

“I’m pinching myself it’s not working why isn’t i AARGH FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK IT’S STUCK IN MY ARM”

“That foul and treacherous beast! Why would one such as YOU agree to its terms?”

“Denier of Abbreviations, Six hundred and Fourteenth Host of the Midnight Verdance, at your service”

“god, if you’re there, i’m sorry. i’m so, so, sorry.”

“…Very well. Make it quick.”

“Please, remember me as I was, not as I will soon be.”

They seem to have many answers, these souls whom I question. It matters not. By the time I can ask them, their fate is clear. Corpses, all the same, each one with some link between them-here, their own blade driven through their heart. Thus the cycle continues, until some force beyond even mine sees fit to break it again. Then, and only then, will I move on. For now, trying to guess the link before I see it keeps me entertained.

Nowhere

The ringed city of Nowhere exists in a state of constant motion-it is always exactly 14 miles away from you. This is achieved through a constant monitoring of your mind, and through the city’s great phase-wheels, which allow travel through solid matter or empty sky as though nothing was there. As such, Nowhere can only be reached by accident, stumbled upon in a period of drifting apathy so coercive as to keep the city itself still. Of course, in these states the last thing anyone wants to do is travel long distances, and so Nowhere remains protected.

Were it to be found, the city’s single street is easy to navigate. Every building in the city is located around it, and can be reached from it. The architecture varies in style and opulence as you arc around, from gothic cathedrals and grand facades to brutalist flats and crammed tenements. Every building, however, hosts but one inhabitant, each unique and marked by their domain-servants and custodians more than owners. A grand palace may hold a rotund and metallic figure, crown emerging from its head, while one claimed by disrepair may be watched by a skeletal jester, the last mocking survivor of the court that once schemed within.

The greatest folly of Nowhere can be seen in the roofs and cellars of almost any structure, where the remnants of great panels or drilling equipment remain. Once, they dreamed of expansion, of growth, of spacious parks and sunlit dreams. The plan was simple, to expand from a ring to a full sphere, a true city of the future reaching from the high heavens deep into the bowels of the Earth. At first, it worked beautifully, platforms surging outwards from the ring and caves burrowing below it, new lives sprouting from the houses that emerged. Catastrophe struck, however, when for just a moment, a phase wheel failed. Normally, this would cause at worst minor quakes, as auxiliary ones spun through time to shift them to safety. However, in this case, the momentary desynchronization was enough to cause a single panel to come loose from an old temple. As it fell, it dragged down another, which began a cascade as almost the entire city rained down and out of the 14 mile limit. Left stranded beyond the reach of the great anchors that tied it to this reality, the houses and their occupants drifted into dreams, isolated and terrified. Occasionally, one will stumble into Nowhere by blind luck as the city flees through realities to undo an unwanted boarding action from time. For you, this may manifest as a slight headache and an inability to remember why you came to where you were. For them, it was a struggle for survival, and for every person found during this desperate flight many more will have been lost

There are two main political movements in Nowhere that spawned out of the Collapse. The first, the more radical one, advocates for your death. They believe without you as a chain, the fourteen mile limit could be overcome and they could recover what was lost, and rebuild their third dimension with the protection of their technology. The second, more traditionalist, movement, advocates for your survival, on the belief that the death of you could cause some even more apocalyptic alteration, and possibly the city’s destruction altogether. Neither are right, of course. You are an insignificant part of this system, except as a mostly accurate marker for a fixed point. The city’s fear of your arrival is unfounded, the supposed crises that follow in your wake simply mundane events amplified by heightened awareness on their part and occasional clumsiness on yours. All you can do is wander onwards through your unknowing life, and pause only to mourn the deaths from your every lapse of purpose.

How to eat the best Yorkshire Pudding

1. Find a car for the journey. Silver is best. Never green. They will see green.

2. Collect provisions for the voyage north. Your second sharpest knife. A stolen dream. Two lengths of twine.  Perseverance.

3. Head northward until the sun scratches the horizon. Do not worry. It cannot get out. They promised.

4. Take the next left. You will be on an old, old road. Stick close to the hedgerow, but keep your eyes on the road.

5. Keep your eyes on the road.

6. Roll forth, the lance of your headlights held firm through the slinking darkness

7. If you see a hitchhiker, open your window and pass them your dream. DO NOT STOP THE CAR. That would be an invitation. You know what would happen if you did.

8. If you see a bird, follow it. The road will know where to take you.

9. Ignore the signs. Their lures of civilization are not the prayers you seek.

10. When you run out of fuel, get out of the car. Bring the knife. Tie one length of twine to the outside handle of the car door, and the other to your hand. It is yours now. It may have seemed so before, but it is only truly so now. 

11. Walk until you find a break in the hedges, and slip through. You will be in a meadow. If you are not in a meadow, look less closely. Those are not faces, merely flowers. That is just dew on the grass, not blood. That sound is simply the bees buzzing. Don’t you feel silly now?

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13. On this flower there will be a butterfly. Ask it if you are in heaven. Butterflies are notorious liars, so show them the knife to prove your worth. Let it be trodden upon. After all, the finest blades can only be known by their taste 

14. If you are not in heaven, cut through the butterfly. Bisect it perfectly. If you do not, at least it will be quick

15. If you are in heaven, do not let the butterfly keep the knife. Reassure it that you will return to give it to them, if you must. Both of you know this is a lie. It does not matter.

16. Keep the sound of the heartbeat on your left. Remember why you came.

17. After a time, fatigue will set in, and you may seek to camp. Do not. Heaven has few laws. This is why. Keep walking

18. When you cannot fight the exhaustion any longer, take your perseverance and your knife, as well as a flint from the middle of the road. Strike the blade on the flint until you get a spark. Perseverance catches easily. You will be renewed. Leave the knife. It is no longer yours. WHATEVER YOU DO, DO NOT LET THE SPARK TOUCH THE TWINE ON YOUR HAND. If it does, do not think of what you are leaving behind. They like the taste of regret.

19. Push onwards. Quickly now. It will not burn forever

20. When you hear the hoofbeats, move to the center of the road.

21. You will not see the throne ahead and to your right. Be thankful. Some things are best left unwitnessed.

22. When you are level with the throne that you do not see, turn away. Maintain symmetry.

23. A thing and itself will not have been the same. That was not the teaching of Irem, but it is not not the teaching, either

24. There will be a flask. Take it with both hands. Not one.

25. The hitchhiker may approach you. Take her gift. Hold it close, like a lost child

26. The birds will not visit. This is probably an omen. Do not read too deeply into it. Fear will only hinder you.

27. Ascend. You will see a car. Wait until it is yours.

28. The gas tank is full. Do not question why. The meadow is smaller now. Do not question why.

29. There will be an unmarked turn. Take it.

30. Do not get used to the tarmac. It will be gone soon. Just like you.

31. Follow the signs for the farm. You are not going to the the farm. They do not need to know that.

32. When you hear the river whisper, take the next turn.

33. You will feel the potholes and the dust, and be afraid. This is normal.

34. The first sentinel will rise from the ground, and ask the name of the last person you killed. Do not lie.

35. The second sentinel will crawl down from the sky. Give it the dream, or the gift. Either will go into its string.

36. The thing from the river is not the third sentinel. I do not know what it is.

37. The last sentinel is different for everyone. It will offer a choice. I cannot help you make that choice. Know this: all tithes are paid, for the end

38. Enter the house. The hitchhiker will be there. You may not recognise her. You may never have seen her before.

39. Do not open the Aga.

40. Do not bother the chef. Those ones do not like disturbances.

41. Your plate will be blessed with a Goliath of past aeons. Wait.

42. Take the gravy. Speak the words. You will know them, though you may not know how. Pour generously. Do not be ungrateful. Excess is no crime, here.

43. Test the edge. It is firm, yet not eternal. As it should be. As all things are.

44. Eat deeply, and count your blessings. The rest of the meal is yet to come.

45. Replace your knife. It is always good to be prepared.

Five Five Eight Two

Five Five Eight Two is the name it is most known by. It has many others. The Drink of Gods. The Nectar of Finality. Sommelier’s Arrogance. Molten Hope. On every world, in every system, rumours of it circle. It is the most valuable substance known, by volume or by mass, and holds the prestigious title of the most death-dense drink in existence, averaging thousands of deaths for each tantalising drop.

The prices paid for it vary from market to market, and era to era. Initially, it courted merely an astronomical fee, but the vineyard that sourced it, out in deep space to mitigate external influence on the grapes, vanished millenia ago. That incident has had almost as many papers written about it as the correct way of consuming Five Five Eight Two, and many more conspiracy theories. Now, it demands not mere money, but favours and goods. Promises of dynasties, corporations, minerals, even planets. The Earl Stormeye was said to have sold a cryo rack with three unopened bottles of it, for a solar system, and is generally considered to have gotten the short end of the stick. This story is considered a fabrication now, not least because any claim to the possession of three bottles is nigh-impossible.

More often, however, Five Five Eight Two is taken by force. At the end of a gun, or more likely a fleet. Stolen away in the dead of night, while a small legion storm the gates and hold back the guards. As the prize for grand tournaments, galaxy wide contests decades long, where the combatants are kept alive in suspended animation between bouts.

The unsealing and subsequent drinking of a bottle is a momentous occasion. Generally, the preparation for such an event is done years in advance. Specialist vessels are designed, each boasting unique merits. Rooms are constructed on certain planets, some never before touched by human endeavours, to ensure the atmosphere and gravity are conducive to the experience. One of the leading causes of dispute in the Guild of Sommeliers is on what food to pair it with, whether the meat of genetically engineered game is sufficient, or whether a meal should be forgone altogether. What is about to happen here would appall them, and drive some of the more devoted ones to manic, lethal, rage.

In the back of grungy streets, in a mining slum on the moon of some unremarkable planet, a small figure squats on a roof with a bottle, white fabric stretched over their face. The air is thick with smog and dust, a choking, stinking taste. Higher up, it would be cleaner, the strong gravity keeping the particulate from tainting the wealthier layers for too long. They are hot and sweaty from a day’s work, and are resting for a moment before heading back to their pitiful excuse for a room. They do not know where the bottle came from, or even what it contains. With a shrug, they twist out the cork, and let it sit for a moment in the tepid air, unsealed and exposed, before taking a swig. It tastes surprisingly bitter, and not as good as the local ales. 

Then, the aftertaste kicks in. They fall for what seems like days. Nights pass, stars circle like sharks, closing ever inward. The planet rushes up towards and through them. They stroke every atom of dust, every quark, every note in the cosmic song. Reality unravels before them, and reassembles in impossible colours, shapes offset and distorted. Time crawls through their gut and out of their throat like bile. Every god swears homage before them, before each breaking apart into glass and melting. They are one with the universe and the universe with them.

Another heartbeat, and all is still again. They take another swig.

What They Saw

This is what Lucifer saw, they say. (Before the sky broke open)

This is what Icarus saw. (Before he ran a knife across his wings and fell)

This is what Oppenheimer saw. (Before he tied himself to the tower and detonated Trinity)

This is what the crew of Apollo 19 saw. (Before they removed their helmets and tore off their suits)

It sits before me now, burning in the centre of my vision, mocking my arrogance, eating away at my mind. A single golden teardrop, at first. It has grown quickly, in the space between frantic heartbeats. Through it, I see the world as it truly is, without the comforting delusions we project. No blue skies and sunsets or fields, no dreary greys of choking fogs, no towering pillars or lush forests. An emptiness, stretching outwards forever in all directions, punctuated only by specks of dust.

A slow wind tears at me, picking up speed, ripping my skin from my grasp, and in that hurricane I watch it decay, in seconds that last millenia, flesh disintegrating in the infinity of nothings. In that moment, I feel my purpose abraded, my perspective, my sense of being. All now gone, all with the dust that is all that will remain of us. Slowly, something not unlike a revelation is revealed, as all else is blown into the storm. All this is meaningless. All we are, all we ever do, all we ever can do, is dust in the end. All our strifes, our petty acts of defiance in prolonging our survival must always be for naught.

I make a simple, single choice, in that moment. It doesn’t take much. A nudge of a thruster, a press of a button. A rocket roars for a few hours, then silence once again rules the ship. There will be screams, of course. Panic across the globe, once they realise. That was what happened here. They were not ready. By the time the news reaches them, though, the window for action will have long since been clawed away by time. There will be nothing they can do but speculate, and theorise, and regret.

They will never witness this final glory, as the ark falls starward, as humanity’s greatest endeavour turns to vapour. Those on board will never know the mercy I have bought them, of course. The cryosleep chambers have warnings, of course, but as the only animate crew member left it was easy enough to disable them. The star is nearer every time I look. Proxima Centauri Earth’s nearest neighbour. The red glow sears itself into my retinas, trying to displace the herald that showed me my purpose. It could not succeed. Even if it did, the damage is done. My purpose complete, I await conclusion.

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